When I first got to know Nick Voijic I was amazed, how the guy without any arms, without any legs survived. Not only he survived but also he became most inspirational orator. How can he ever do that in first place, the answer is in the video. But the only most important thing that he could not convey is, it will be only you who has to get up. Others can inspire you, cajoled you but you have to get up yourself.
All the best!!!!!
When you watch this video, you might not like what Balboa says, but frankly- no matter how many times life put you down. No Matter what happens to, eventually you have to get up yourself only. Seldom it happens that anyone will help you. Even if someone helps you, without your own volition, getting up is impossible.
I am not too sure with how many it happens, however I am most disarray, sad, confused and fearful in the most early part of the day. Whenever I woke up, all kinds of bad things that are either happened to me or I am envisaging to happen come and take my head in their lap. I am most angry in the morning, when I recall how somebody made fun of me, how other day I was made too much of embarrassed. All kinds of fears also haunts me at the dawn. I always pray to God and search every where why all such negative thoughts and fear surrounds me in the wee hours when I am supposedly most happy, when day is yet to begin, when I should be smiling at everyone, when I will be praying to God and when I will thank everyone for whatever has happened to me, at least I am glad to be alive. On the contrary, I wake up, most fatigued, confused, sad, and if given a chance I can even cry.
Upon searching I never got any answer. In fact I am also searching some Guru who can help me, but I am yet to find one. I might not be prepared yet:). Upon coming to our topic, I searched a lot why I have most heavy part of the day in the morning. I never got any proper answer. But there can be several reasons why it happens, now reasons cannot take them away. It is always good to know the cause, but can cause help us in removing all the bad happenings. I doubt, sometimes cause can be useful but for me to know the cause is by itself a great quest. So I am more concentrating on the ways to move forward. Now problem exists for whatever reason, but how to convert that feeling into something positive.
Now I have this analogy, we all have anger inside us, if we acknowledge that and try to see if we are getting in the grip of anger, we can easily escape from it. Even if are unable to get out of the grip of anger, we can use anger to our benefit. Anger gives us chance to see several perspective of anything we don’t like. generally those perceptive are negative and we have one side of the story and candidly, it is our egoistic side. But let it be at least we have some deeper knowledge and we can see our muscle tightening, blood pressure rising up. Wow isn’t it great that something in brain is controlling our body without giving us chance and if we get carried away we will waste this energy and we might end up repenting. So when we saw anger is taking over us, we start to give it a full possession of the things without getting us involved. Frankly speaking this is the most difficult part of the analogy, we have to witness as we can witness sun rise, rain. But as those things are happening outside of us, we can become witness to them without much ado. But how to do the same, when something is happening inside us. Now give it a shot and try to witness everything inside, like enjoying ice cream- watch your tongue enjoying it, watch your nose enjoying fragrance, watch your hand enjoying smoothness. Once you start witnessing, it will easy to get inside and watch anger. After a while you will see, how you are controlling this negative energy and eventually you can make benefit from it.
Now in the morning, whenever you wake up, start the day by acknowledge the worst has already been told to you by someone inside you (it may mind or whatever, the Noun is unnecessary). Now you have to verbally suggest to youself, what worst can happen to you. And when fear sees that you are prepared it will start losing you. Frankly speaking this won’t be a just couple of days thing. In fact bringing a visible change in your emotions, your fears is never a easy process. Changing self is most arduous tasks and only people with strongest will can go in this field. Faint heart should not come into this arena- this is my personal recommendation.
Now before I conclude, I like to put few points:
Everyone of us has same weakness, some fight with them, some make them work for them
Everyone of us has to fight with them.
So whenever you are in morning blues, you can cry offcourse. But for more permanent solution, work on it and make the enemy your friend
Do we really wait for Friday this much. What is so good about Friday? It gives us two days break from our busy schedule, but how many of us really take a break from the schedule. In mind we are always preoccupied with tension of the work, meeting deadlines, thoughts about things went wrong, about the deals in future and so on. Does getting drunk and telling mind that the hangover will forget our deeds, really helps? Fear related to work always there on mind.
Now how to make it a real Friday eve. What to do to make it a really thankful to God. My personal perception is give time to yourself. Remain with you. Enjoy your company, see how you are breathing. Keep check on your breathing process. It will help you settling down. It may happen that week was a complete fiasco, or how Friday ended made you exhausted. But no matter what, at least tell yourself to give yourself a break. Don’t think how bad the week was or how things will untangle next week. Delve yourself in the potion of the peace. It won’t be easy to come by. But then what is easy in this world. World is full of false promises. When life is uncertain, there is no surety of things which are not in your control. Hence have fun with the silence inside. Don’t be afraid by the mind which suggests that you are sitting idle or wasting your time by giving time to yourself. In fact all kind of negative energy will try to pull you backward, but don’t get deterred by them. There is so much pessimism in the world that no matter what you do, don’t prevent yourself from having a great time in weekend and really saying Thanks God Its Friday.
Today I thought about it and I want to spend sometime to discuss with myself what is “End”. Is it where everything gets concluded, takes a meaning, takes a shape or does it mean termination of something. In other word is just about reaching an objective or meeting death.
I am not sure , if I am asking for too much from myself as of off course something in me is resisting me from writing further on it. Why I cannot take END as just an another word in dictionary which has meaning synonym to death. The hardest part of any film for that matter is the End where everyone expects a conclusion. Does it happen with life as well. When death approaches us are we getting concluded. We most of our life time measures ourself. We think about us as no one else can do it for us. Our measuring yard may be our achievements , our financial status, our gain of respect and so forth. But are these things really that important when we approach death. Do we really have to check ourself how we are performing. cannot we simply see oyurself as just another living being who is living.
In fact other day I heard someone told me that if you don’t have desires you cannot live. However desire are the one who is nothing more than a perfect killing machines. if desires are not met with proper ending, either they will kill the one who fostered it or it will make him do things which will be bane. So my personal point of view — though I may be not following them religiously, being a imperfect yet– about end is just a transitioning because we are like a circle , if we will closely it will look like a straight line however when we see that in toto it will be a circle with almost no start no end. This is us, no start no end. Do we remember things which existed before us, or are they just told by our parents, our teachers, our friends etc. and does it really matter what will remain when our sojourn will end on earth.
So my personal feeling is we should closely watch everything and see for the end in ever part and should check what they mean. Like the breath we take. No matter how long we stop our breath we have to end that “STOP” and start it. No matter how long the night remains it has to get converted into the Day. Hence everything is getting end and getting converted in something else. This is excellent way to understand how momentarily everything is, they are impermanent, they are moving towards end so that another thing can take its place.
I know it is lot easier said then done, but do we have anyother choice. Either we can totally negate the question and live like a Ostrich which cover its eyes with sand whenever in danger or we can face the challenge fearlessly. Choice always exists and it is always upto us how to take things. So we can conclude the deifintion of END as it is nothing but a simple transitioning phase but only when seen from the eyes of fearless
There were times when we resist to everything. Our Mood makes us to suffer and we become bane to the community we are in. The thing is, are we really social as many us our killing us for one reason for another. Why do we do that. As per Jiddu we are violent by nature. We are bashing our children, behaving rudely with our parents, resent with our spouses. But when we get suggestion to check ourself, we resist.
We are ready to read books, ready to hear sermons ready to do what not.. but keep a vigil on self is big NO. We are such a double standard species that almost 90% of us lives double life , one for others and one for us. We very conveniently get changed when a handsome guy or beautiful girl approaches us to seek his/her attention but when we get married our behavior gets entirely different. Are we truthful to ourself? Why we are like that?
As far as sufferings are concerned, we are always fearful because of our double standards. We don’t hesitate to take risks which are unworthy., at the spur of time and on later stages we curse ourself. Why we cannot have same yardstick for us and everyone else? We are courageous and such enormous powers are hidden within us but question is how to explore them? Why we cannot even sit still for few seconds and when we sit, we at once gets comments from few of us why we want to change.
Can we have few moments in life when we don’t resist to change, accept them without giving them any thoughts, behave same with everyone and consider all like us – like how we want us to get treated.
When I was born
The parents I grew up with
snatched my toys
and made me eat the stuff I don’t like
I got bully by seniors in schools
Got to learn things I hated most
I keep on learning
Things I don’t want to learn
Made to do
What I never intended
Life keeps on moving
I got married
But the suffering never ended
It touched in various Guises
I afraidly prayed
Woes never left me
I just got pain
Knocked down several times
I hurt and screamed
The glimpses which I always wanted
I had sometimes
But still instead of enjoying that power
Materialistic world keeps pulling me
And scared of the unknown
Keeps on clinging to suffering
finding excuses to be suffered
It never happened to me!!
For something, I was afraid to look inside,
I always sought answers to questions outside!!
It never occurred to me ,
that what I am most afraid to be with
is none other then me!!
And that is why I lost in crowd , hide inside the deafening music!!
But I remain scared to the space inside me!!
I keep visiting seers, listing to sermons
Keep on abiding what books keep on saying!!
But never checked where is actual power
The Power Within!!
The momentarily silence that I have
Surrounds me with mystic Love,
I know how bliss will be!!
But I keep onlooking joy outside
In the perishable world
where impermanence prevails!!!
Always and change happens every time!!
But the power within keeps on burning
And eventually power will burn me too
to get united with the ultimate!!!
Well, I cannot be more clear here. I need your attention. But mind you, the attention I seek from reader has to be complete attention. I don’t want to have any diluted attention. Any other type of attention is waste of my time and your time. Hence I need your complete attention, without any alteration. Be it chattering within, be it thoughts, be it your past which is embarrassing to you, be it your future which might be worrying, be it your Job which might not last long, be it anything for that matter. I need you to be here, right now. But wait. You don’t have to fight with yourself, whatever hammering your head, just observe them.
Off course I need your attention, but I don’t require you to be violent. Just don’t at least fight with the one which you have kept for don’t know how many lives, how many years. So just observe them check what they want, where are they coming from. I cannot help you in this quietening the self sojourn, like I cannot eat vitamins on your behalf and get healthy. You have do it yourself. You will be surprised to know that this is your first interaction with the ATTENTION. So far what was that attention- you cannot say, but you were hypnotized or you never realized . Have you ever noticed the birds, they always give their full and undiverted attention to everything they do. So what is the issue with we Human beings which are supposedly more superior to any species on earth. Are we or Aren’t we? I am just asking for your full and complete attention and see how much challenges are coming in the way. So be it, don’t fight with anything. See it will take time but when I can wait why cannot you? Are you ready to provide me your attention eventually.
The title might offend so many of us, and we will require to do a little deeper analysis. I request to all of us, use have this opportunity to identify real sufferer with me. For that, you have to really do preparation and should have open mind. Mind you, if you have already made prejudiced or expectation that will not help you. If we give ourself a chance we might see what is the real cause of suffering.
Now, as we have started, can we keep all the relationships, no matter how important they are, aside for time being. Just try to be with yourself. Don’t be afraid of yourself – (what a paradox, we human beings are- we don’t get bored in crowd. But if given a chance we cannot live in seclusion). Now see the suffering and yes exactly check what suffering is causing to you both physically and psychologically. Do you see it travelling inside you? Can you see it making your skin crawl, sweat? And frankly when you first identify it, your reaction to suffering/someone inside you won’t like and want you either suggest – WHAT A WASTE OF TIME or NO THIS WON’T WORK? But don’t worry, this is just the tip of iceberg. If you want to be free and see the real reason – YOU, you will see there is no suffering actually. So when you observe the feeling of repulsion or nausea or something else while watching sufferings, can you check within inside who is actually getting benefited with the suffering. Now this is very crucial, you have to wander inside and actually witness who is the one enjoying suffering. The caveat is please don’t expect result in very first moment. This is really going to take time. I will say that this is real meditation, just observe yourself, especially in the moment of sufferings. Sometimes you might get a feeling that some evil is within you, but don’t run away from anything. Face it, you are no coward. It is human being who can face the self and enjoy being watched.
Gradually you will isolate something who is actually enjoying suffering, but don’t react. This is another request I want to make. Don’t be cruel to yourself. How will you remain non-violent when you want to kill yourself. You undoubtedly hate yourself for various reasons, but who has given those reasons, layer by layer uncover them. As they are the one who are causing suffering. Generally our inner expectations, our desires, our hatred, our jealousy and so many other non tangible issues make us suffer. But avoid giving them a name. Enemy is something within. In case you have isolated, excellent. But it won’t be easy, there will so many repulsion’s, even sometime physical world will create problem. Sometime some mood swing will hamper the progress. But be persistent, take a rest , take a break, if required but resume after some time. This is exploration of lifetime, so don’t expect any immediate results.
Once you identify something inside really enjoying suffering, can you observe it? If it revolts, creates mirages, send thoughts, break your awareness, don’t get angry with yourself, because this is what it want. And once you will clearly see it, that very moment if you able to see it, watch it, it will dissolve as it was never there. Did you get the point. I am not suggesting any theory, this is so practical and I beg to warn you, this might not be everybody’s cup of tea. But this is the only way. I am not sure, gradually you might discover your own unique path to discover the origination of suffering. But what I can assure you -you will be glad to understand that suffering was never existed. There was just the fear and somebody – which now might not exists inside- was really holding to it. Holding the suffering like someone keep on holding to some expectation in vain, because expectations never gets fulfilled but they will give way to more expectations and this vicious cycle of expectations never ends. So what you might be aware of a your presence within you, because there cannot be anything inside. It has to be you. How can there be two, when you yourself are multifaceted. Ain’t it repelling to many of us. How it can be possible? But have you observed, you are something before your wife, something else before your Boss, before your children. So what I am saying as per convenience you have multiple you which is in external world. Internal world is completely strange to you, you always avoided going inward. This is a void you have filled with so many noises/things. So how will you react to things or happenings occurring inside. Hope even if you don’t agree a bit with me, you will be brave enough to be inside and discover what a beautiful world we have inside us and how can it help us appreciate and see things more clearly which are though external to us but are not much different from us.